As I ran this morning my mind wondered on so many things. In my mind I'm always thinking I can do so much more when it comes to my running. I feel that the heart and soul is there, the determination and commitment is there, the patience is also there, so why am I not there?. I've had people say " you're too hard on yourself Dawn", but that's the only way I know to be. My body is just not clicking with the mind. How I wish I had the opposite problem of thinking I can't, I can't I can't and accomplish so much more than thinking I can, I can I can and never seeming to accomplish more than my body will let me.
I've been thinking that there are people that are meant to be 5 min or less milers, 6min milers, 7 min milers, 8 min milers, etc, etc, etc, 12min milers I am starting to think you are just destine to be what you are. Just think if everbody were 5min or less milers, who would be the middle of the packers, the back of the packers and who would bring in the rear. I'm sure society would still find a way to label us. Just my thoughts today. I'm in this self pitty mood, life is bigger than this Dawn get over it and carry on you have so much more to accomplish.
January 2, 2006